Author: Rebecca Rogers Maher
Published: November 10th 2015
Format: eARC | Pages: 180
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance
Source: Publish via NetGalley
★★★★ (4/5) Stars!
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I received a copy of this book, from the publisher, in exchange for an honest review. In no way did this sway either my review or my rating!
This book was extremely hard to get through, strictly on an emotional basis and nothing to do with writing quality at all. You know how sometimes you come across those books that will restore your faith in humanity and lift you up, all that kind of stuff? Yeah this did none of those things for me throughout huge chunks of it. I kept having to stop and start, over and over. I desperately wanted to see how it would all come to an end, but at the same time every few pages I was either angry or hurting or a really messed up combination of the two.
My feelings towards Holly's character are very, very mixed. As a mother, she's pretty freaking great. She would and has sacrificed anything for her son. On that front I have copious amounts of respect for her. However, due to the verbal abuse of her ex-husband she is an extremely weak person to the most annoying extent. Don't get me wrong, I realize that this, in a way, is not her fault. Her ex is a real piece of work let me tell you. But the fact that she allows it to go on and even years after their divorce lets herself be a doormat for him drove me insane. Every time it was in her point of view she would internally question her own worth, her worth as a mother and so on and so forth. I had plenty of moments when her whiny, self-depreciating inner monologue was almost too much.
But what really and truly made me lose faith in mankind was less the main characters and more the brief side characters. First you have Holly's ex-husband, Brett, who is bad enough as it is. He would constantly degrade her which is bad in itself, but what made it a million times worse is the fact that he would do it while standing right next to their son who is around 10 years old I think. So he's obviously old enough to understand what's going on. I was seeing red so freaking much. Holly would bring Drew to his house to drop him off for his week with the kid and as they got out the car Brett would look her up and down with total disgust and say things like "You really just don't even try do you?" or anything else he can find to pick at her about with Drew right freaking there. Bless Holly though for the fact that she never responds, instead she'll just bend down and hug her little boy and tell him how much she loved him. Ugh. It's been days and I still feel all the rage just thinking about that jerk.
Or the heartless, piece of crap reporter who did something so incredibly unthinkable that was the worst invasion of privacy I could ever imagine to Ray. I won't give it away, but I really have no words for how sick and gutted it made me feel. Mostly because I could actually see this happening in the real world and it hurt my heart.
Everybody always dreams about how amazing life could be if you hit it big, won the lottery. You imagine spending the money in your mind and how different it could make your life. Heck, I did it myself while I was reading. Went through all the what ifs.
I loved that this book didn't paint it all with champagne and roses. You see a darker side. You see the pain, the fear and the worry. The doubts that settle in. You see these characters struggle with trust and how to go on and move to the next phase when everything they've known their whole lives changes in the blink of an eye. Rebecca Rogers Maher did such an amazing job of pulling you into that negative side of something that most would think of as a blessing and really tugging at your emotions and give you that feeling of "be careful what you wish for."
Even though Rolling in the Deep was hard to read due to the huge toll on the emotions it was such a good and engaging story. I adored Ray and his genuinely good and giving spirit. I loved the romance between Ray and Holly. I adored little Drew and what a great kid he was despite the kind of man his father was and displayed to him constantly. It was just a really good, dark and intriguing story and I will definitely be reading more from Rebecca Rogers Hughes in the future!
Big thanks to Loveswept for the opportunity to read and review this book!